Letter 50031: To our brother Paulinus and sister Therasia, most beloved and sincere, truly most blessed and most distinguished for...

To our brother Paulinus and sister Therasia, most beloved and sincere, truly most blessed and most distinguished for the abundant grace God has bestowed on them -- Augustine sends greetings in the Lord. 1. In my eagerness to be near you in spirit, if not yet in person, I badly wanted my reply to your previous letter (if anything of mine deserves to be called a reply to yours) to reach you with all possible speed. But my delay has brought an unexpected reward: a second letter from you. The Lord is good. He often withholds what we want in order to give us what we would prefer. It is one pleasure to know you will write when you receive my letter; it is another that, because you had not yet received it, you have written now. The joy I felt reading this latest letter would have been lost if mine had been delivered quickly, as I intended. But now, holding your letter while expecting your reply to mine, my happiness is doubled. The delay was not my fault, and the Lord, in His greater kindness, has done what He judged best for my joy. 2. We welcomed with great gladness in the Lord the holy brothers Romanus and Agilis -- a living letter from you, so to speak, one that could hear and answer our voices. Through them we partly enjoyed your presence, though this only intensified our longing to see you in person. It would be impossible for you to give, and unreasonable for us to expect, as much about yourself in a written letter as we received from them face to face. What no paper could convey was also visible in them: such delight in speaking of you that in their very faces and eyes, we could read you written on their hearts with inexpressible joy. A sheet of paper, whatever its quality and however excellent the words on it, gains no benefit for itself from what it contains -- though it may be opened to the great benefit of others. But in reading this living letter of yours -- the minds of these brothers -- through our conversations with them, we found that the blessedness of those on whom you had imprinted your influence was proportional to how deeply you had written upon them. To attain the same blessedness, we transcribed into our own hearts what was written in theirs, through the most eager questioning about everything concerning you. 3. Despite all this, it is with deep regret that we let them leave us so soon, even to return to you. Consider the conflicting emotions pulling at us. Our obligation to release them grew in proportion to the intensity of their desire to obey you. But the more intense their devotion, the more fully they brought you almost into our presence, by revealing how tender your affections are. So our reluctance to let them go increased alongside our recognition that their urgency to depart was entirely reasonable. What an unbearable trial this would be -- were it not that in such partings we are not actually separated from each other; were it not that we are members of one body, sharing one Head, sustained by the same grace, nourished by the same bread, walking the same road, and dwelling in the same home! You recognize these words, I trust -- quoted from your own letter. And why should I not use them? Why should they be yours more than mine, since insofar as they are true, they spring from communion with the same Head? My brother and sister, holy and beloved in God, members of the same body with us -- who could doubt we are animated by one spirit, except those who are strangers to the bond of love that ties us together? 4. I am curious, though: do you bear this physical separation with more patience and ease than I do? If so, I confess I take no pleasure in your fortitude -- unless it is simply reasonable, given that I am far less worthy of your longing than you are of mine. In any case, if I found in myself the power to bear your absence patiently, it would displease me, because it would make me stop trying to see you. What could be more absurd than being made lazy by endurance? Let me tell you about the Church duties keeping me here. The blessed father Valerius (who joins me in greeting you and who thirsts for you with a fervor our brothers will describe) was not content to have me as his presbyter -- he insisted on adding the greater burden of sharing the episcopate with him. I was afraid to decline, persuaded by the love of Valerius and the urgency of the people that it was the Lord's will. The yoke of Christ is in itself easy, and His burden light (Matthew 11:30); but through my own weakness, I may find it heavy in some measure. I cannot tell how much lighter my load would become if comforted by a visit from you, who live, as I am told, more free and unburdened by such cares.

Letter 31 (A.D. 396) Please help support the mission of New Advent and get the full contents of this website as an instant download. Includes the Catholic Encyclopedia, Church Fathers, Summa, Bible and more — all for only $19.99... To Brother Paulinus and to Sister Therasia, Most Beloved and Sincere, Truly Most Blessed and Most Eminent for the Very Abundant Grace of God Bestowed on Them Augustine Sends Greeting in the Lord. 1. Although in my longing to be without delay near you in one sense, while still remote in another, I wished much that what I wrote in answer to your former letter (if, indeed, any letter of mine deserves to be called an answer to yours) should go with all possible expedition to your Grace, my delay has brought me the advantage of a second letter from you. The Lord is good, who often withholds what we desire, that He may add to it what we would prefer. For it is one pleasure to me that you will write me on receiving my letter, and it is another that, through not receiving it at once, you have written now. The joy which I have felt in reading this letter would have been lost to me if my letter to your Holiness had been quickly conveyed to you, as I intended and earnestly desired. But now, to have this letter, and to expect a reply to my own, multiplies my satisfaction. The blame of the delay cannot be laid to my charge; and the Lord, in His more abundant kindness, has done that which He judged to be more conducive to my happiness. 2. We welcomed with great gladness in the Lord the holy brothers Romanus and Agilis, who were, so to speak, an additional letter from you, capable of hearing and answering our voices, whereby most agreeably your presence was in part enjoyed by us, although only to make us long the more eagerly to see you. It would be at all times and in every way impossible for you to give, and unreasonable for us to ask, as much information from you concerning yourself by letter as we received from them by word of mouth. There was manifest also in them (what no paper could convey) such delight in telling us of you, that by their very countenance and eyes while they spoke, we could with unspeakable joy read you written on their hearts. Moreover, a sheet of paper, of whatever kind it be, and however excellent the things written upon it may be, enjoys no benefit itself from what it contains, though it may be unfolded with great benefit to others; but, in reading this letter of yours — namely, the minds of these brethren — when conversing with them, we found that the blessedness of those upon whom you had written was manifestly proportioned to the fullness with which they had been written upon by you. In order, therefore, to attain to the same blessedness, we transcribed in our own hearts what was written in theirs, by most eager questioning as to everything concerning you. 3. Notwithstanding all this, it is with deep regret that we consent to their so soon leaving us, even to return to you. For observe, I beseech you, the conflicting emotions by which we are agitated. Our obligation to let them go without delay was increased according to the vehemence of their desire to obey you; but the greater the vehemence of this desire in them, the more completely did they set you forth as almost present with us, because they let us see how tender your affections are. Therefore our reluctance to let them go increased with our sense of the reasonableness of their urgency to be permitted to go. Oh insupportable trial, were it not that by such partings we are not, after all, separated from each other — were it not that we are members of one body, having one Head, enjoying the effusion of the same grace, living by the same bread, walking in the same way, and dwelling in the same home! You recognise these words, I suppose, as quoted from your own letter; and why should not I also use them? Why should they be yours any more than mine, seeing that, inasmuch as they are true, they proceed from communion with the same head? And in so far as they contain something that has been specially given to you, I have so loved them the more on that account, that they have taken possession of the way leading through my breast, and would suffer no words to pass from my heart to my tongue until they went first, with the priority which is due to them as yours. My brother and sister, holy and beloved in God, members of the same body with us, who could doubt that we are animated by one spirit, except those who are strangers to that affection by which we are bound to each other? 4. Yet I am curious to know whether you bear with more patience and ease than I do this bodily separation. If it be so, I do not, I confess, take any pleasure in your fortitude in this respect, unless perhaps because of its reasonableness, seeing that I confess myself much less worthy of your affectionate longing than you are of mine. At all events, if I found in myself a power of bearing your absence patiently, this would displease me, because it would make me relax my efforts to see you; and what could be more absurd than to be made indolent by power of endurance? But I beg to acquaint your Charity with the ecclesiastical duties by which I am kept at home, inasmuch as the blessed father Valerius (who with me salutes you, and thirsts for you with a vehemence of which you will hear from our brethren), not content with having me as his presbyter, has insisted upon adding the greater burden of sharing the episcopate with him. This office I was afraid to decline, being persuaded, through the love of Valerius and the importunity of the people, that it was the Lord's will, and being precluded from excusing myself on other grounds by some precedents of similar appointments. The yoke of Christ, it is true, is in itself easy, and His burden light; Matthew 11:30 yet, through my perversity and infirmity, I may find the yoke vexatious and the burden heavy in some degree; and I cannot tell how much more easy and light my yoke and burden would become if I were comforted by a visit from you, who live, as I am informed, more disengaged and free from such cares. I therefore feel warranted in asking, nay, demanding and imploring you to condescend to come over into Africa, which is more oppressed with thirst for men such as you are than even by the well-known aridity of her soil. 5. God knows that I long for your visiting this country, not merely to gratify my own desire, nor merely on account of those who through me, or by public report, have heard of your pious resolution; I long for it for the sake of others also who either have not heard, or, hearing, have not believed the fame of your piety, but who might be constrained to love excellence of which they could then be no longer in ignorance or doubt. For although the perseverance and purity of your compassionate benevolence is good, more is required of you; namely, Let your light so shine before men, that they may behold your good works, and may glorify your Father which is in heaven. Matthew 5:16 The fishermen of Galilee found pleasure not only in leaving their ships and their nets at the Lord's command, but also in declaring that they had left all and followed Him. Matthew 19:27 And truly he despises all who despises not only all that he was able, but also all that he was desirous to possess. What may have been desired is seen only by the eyes of God; what was actually possessed is seen also by the eyes of men. Moreover, when things trivial and earthly are loved by us, we are somehow more firmly wedded to what we have than to what we desire to have. For whence was it that he who sought from the Lord counsel as to the way of eternal life, went away sorrowful upon hearing that, if he would be perfect, he must sell all, and distribute to the poor, and have treasure in heaven, unless because, as the Gospel tells us, he had great possessions? Luke 18:22-23 For it is one thing to forbear from appropriating what is wanting to us; it is another thing to rend away that which has become a part of ourselves: the former action is like declining food, the latter is like cutting off a limb. How great and how full of wonder is the joy with which Christian charity beholds in our day a sacrifice cheerfully made in obedience to the Gospel of Christ, which that rich man grieved and refused to make at the bidding of Christ Himself! 6. Although language fails to express that which my heart has conceived and labours to utter, nevertheless, since you perceive with your discernment and piety that the glory of this is not yours, that is to say, not of man, but the glory of the Lord in you (for you yourselves are most carefully on your guard against your Adversary, and most devoutly strive to be found as learners of Christ, meek and lowly in heart; and, indeed, it were better with humility to retain than with pride to renounce this world's wealth) — since, I say, you are aware that the glory here is not yours, but the Lord's, you see how weak and inadequate are the things which I have spoken. For I have been speaking of the praises of Christ, a theme transcending the tongue of angels. We long to see this glory of Christ brought near to the eyes of our people; that in you, united in the bonds of wedlock, there may be given to both sexes an example of the way in which pride must be trodden under foot, and perfection hopefully pursued. I know not any way in which you could give greater proof of your benevolence, than in resolving to be not less willing to permit your worth to be seen, than you are zealous to acquire and retain it. 7. I recommend to your kindness and charity this boy Vetustinus, whose case might draw forth the sympathy even of those who are not religious: the causes of his affliction and of his leaving his country you will hear from his own lips. As to his pious resolution — his promise, namely, to devote himself to the service of God — it will be more decisively known after some time has elapsed, when his strength has been confirmed, and his present fear is removed. Perceiving the warmth of your love for me, and encouraged thereby to believe that you will not grudge the labour of reading what I have written, I send to your Holiness and Charity three books: would that the size of the volumes were an index of the completeness of the discussion of so great a subject; for the question of free-will is handled in them! I know that these books, or at least some of them, are not in the possession of our brother Romanianus; but almost everything which I have been able for the benefit of any readers to write is, as I have intimated, accessible to your perusal through him, because of your love to me, although I did not charge him to carry them to you. For he already had them all, and was carrying them with him: moreover, it was by him that my answer to your first letter was sent. I suppose that your Holiness has already discovered, by that spiritual sagacity which the Lord has given you, how much that man bears in his soul of what is good, and how far he still comes short through infirmity. In the letter sent through him you have, as I trust, read with what anxiety I commended himself and his son to your sympathy and love, as well as how close is the bond by which they are united to me. May the Lord build them up by your means! This must be asked from Him rather than from you, for I know how much it is already your desire. 8. I have heard from the brethren that you are writing a treatise against the Pagans: if we have any claim on your heart, send it at once to us to read. For your heart is such an oracle of divine truth, that we expect from it answers which shall satisfactorily and clearly decide the most prolix debates. I understand that your Holiness has the books of the most blessed father Ambrose, of which I long greatly to see those which, with much care and at great length, he has written against some most ignorant and pretentious men, who affirm that our Lord was instructed by the writings of Plato. 9. Our most blessed brother Severus, formerly of our community, now president of the church in Milevis, and well known by the brethren in that city, joins me in respectful salutation to your Holiness. The brethren also who are with me serving the Lord salute you as warmly as they long to see you: they long for you as much as they love you; and they love you as your eminent goodness merits. The loaf which we send you will become more rich as a blessing through the love with which your kindness receives it. May the Lord keep you for ever from this generation, my brother and sister most beloved and sincere, truly benevolent, and most eminently endowed with abundant grace from the Lord.