Letter 48

Ambrose of MilanSabinus, Guardian (Defensorem)|c. 385 AD|ambrose milan
From: Ambrose, Bishop of Milan
To: Sabinus, Bishop of Piacenza
Date: ~387 AD
Context: A meditation on Psalm 43 ("Judge me, O God") sent to Sabinus, reflecting on the theme of divine vindication in a time when Ambrose felt beset by enemies at court and among the Arian faction.

Ambrose to Sabinus — greetings in the Lord.

"Judge me, O God, and distinguish my cause from an ungodly nation; deliver me from the deceitful and unjust man" (Psalm 43:1). I have been praying this psalm with particular intensity lately, and you can probably guess why.

The psalmist does not ask to be spared from judgment — he asks for it. That is the confidence of a clean conscience. The man who has something to hide fears the judge; the man who has been falsely accused longs for one. "Judge me" is not bravado; it is an appeal to the only court that cannot be corrupted.

"For you are the God of my strength; why have you cast me off?" (Psalm 43:2). Even the righteous feel abandoned. Even those who trust God feel the silence of God. The psalms are honest about this in a way that later piety sometimes is not. Faith does not mean feeling God's presence at every moment; it means acting on his promise in the absence of his presence.

"Send out your light and your truth; let them lead me" (Psalm 43:3). Light and truth — the psalmist does not ask for ease, or victory, or the destruction of his enemies. He asks for clarity. If I can see the truth, I can endure anything. It is the fog that defeats us, not the battle.

You know, brother, that the pressures of this see sometimes drive me to the edge of what I can bear. I am not complaining — I chose this office (or rather, it chose me). But the psalms give voice to what I cannot say from the pulpit, and sharing them with you is itself a form of prayer.

May the light and truth of God lead us both.

Farewell.

Modern English rendering for readability. See the 19th-century translation or original Latin/Greek for scholarly use.

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