Letter 116: You write seldom, and your letters are short, either because you shrink from writing or from avoiding the satiety that comes from excess; or perhaps to train yourself to curt speech. I, indeed, am never satisfied and however abundant be your communication, it is less than my desire, because I wish to know every detail about you. How are you as t...

Basil of CaesareaFirminius|c. 364 AD|basil caesarea
barbarian invasionillnessimperial politicsmonasticism
Military conflict

You hardly ever write to me, and when you do, you keep it short. Maybe you don't like writing, or maybe you're afraid of boring me, or maybe you're just practicing being brief. Whatever the reason — I'm never satisfied. No matter how much you write, I always want more. I want to know everything about how you're doing. How's your health? How's your spiritual discipline going? Are you still committed to your original path, or have you changed course?

If nothing had changed, I wouldn't need long letters. "I'm fine, hope you're fine" would have been enough.

But I'm hearing things I'm almost embarrassed to repeat — that you've abandoned the way of life your blessed forefathers followed, gone over to your paternal grandfather's path instead, and would rather be a Brettanius than a Firminius. [Basil means Firminius has left his family's tradition of Christian asceticism to pursue a military career, following his grandfather Brettanius's example instead.]

I desperately want to hear about this from you directly — what reasons could possibly have led you into this kind of life? You've said nothing, probably because you're ashamed of what you're planning. So let me be blunt: don't pursue anything that makes you feel ashamed.

If this idea has taken hold of you, let it go. Come back to yourself. Say a permanent goodbye to soldiering, weapons, and the grinding life of the camp. Come home. Your forefathers before you understood that a respected position in your own city is more than enough for a comfortable, distinguished life. And I'm confident you can achieve that easily — you have natural talent, and frankly, not much competition.

So here's what I need from you: if you never actually intended to join the army, or if you've already dropped the idea, write and tell me immediately. But if — God forbid — you're still set on it, don't bother writing. I'll find out soon enough on my own. I don't want a letter delivering that news.

Modern English rendering for readability. See the 19th-century translation or original Latin/Greek for scholarly use.

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