Letter 2010: If the heavenly ruler had looked at my merit, I would have received scant blessings — or none at all.

From: Ennodius, deacon and literary figure in Pavia To: Faustus [Faustus Niger] Date: ~500 AD Context: A letter to Faustus reflecting on divine providence and the modest blessings that come to those who know their own limitations. Ennodius to Faustus. If the heavenly ruler had looked at my merit, I would have received scant blessings — or none at all. But God measures His gifts not by our deserving but by His generosity, and so even the unworthy receive more than they could ever claim. I write to you in this spirit: grateful for what I have received, aware of how little I have earned, and confident that the God who gives to the undeserving will not abandon those who at least try to be faithful. Your own goodness toward me has always exceeded anything I could repay. I accept it as I accept God's grace — with thanks and without pretending to deserve it. Farewell.

X. ENNODIVS FAVSTO. Meritum meum regnator caelestis si adtenderet, aut exigua bona adipiscerer aut magna supplicia et mei idoneus aestimator, quo meritis peruenire non poteram, uoto non tenderem. sed gratias illi, qui delicta nostra sic ne extollamur resecat, ut spem ad latiora perducat. domni Auieni dictionibus a me debentur ista praeloquia., qui necdum ad bonam ualitudinem reductus animum meum sollicitudinis catena laxauerat, dum adhuc inter spem et metum anxii uota penderent. naturam respiciens indicauit quo tonaret eloquio. iudicio quidem ista praeceperam et altricem nobilis metalli uenam in thesauris quos pepererat agnoscebam. sed etiam in hoc peccator euenire uix credidi quod adsequi non merebar. uerum dico teste diuina clementia, si sunt aliqui in Liguria, qui de litterarum possint 2 licit aneri B\' 3 depingunt B renis L 4 puppia B, pupee T iobantnr B 6 iobatur B 7 colligia B 8 salutationis T apnt B 10 ut] et uel uel fort actinns B 11 protnlestiB Bl L hanc epist. om. T, add. in mg. man. rec. hie deã cpim 14 si meritum B caelestisi V si om. B 15 adepiscezer B 17 ne] non L 18 domini b aneni V, auini L 22 indeeaait V1, indeeasuet B, indioauit Pb 98 praeeiperam B, perceperam Pb thensanria B 24 peperat B 26 glvria L . possint LPV, poesent B, possnnt b VL 4 genio et splendore iudicare, uos crediderunt in illa dictione laborasse, quam aetati praeiudicans canus iam in puero sensus excoluit. sed ista magis illis cum lacrimoso gaudio dixi, quos aut effusus sanguis albo curiae caelestis adscripsit aut clara confessio, qui secundis confirment primordia nostra successibus. uos famuli humilitate et obsequio salutans opto inter quaeuis, dum istis animum relaxatis, aduersariorum mala gaudere. nihil est enim, in quo inimicorum possimus damna sentire. hoc nobis deus contulit, quod inuidia terrena non subtrahat.